thoughts you wont know..

I lie on my bed with eyes wide shut
the phone lies by my side
silent-dead as a dodo
the only music around are the cricket calling
calling their mates
the wind howls outside or is it
my heart
i don`t know nor do i care
i keep staring at the dark
i feel lost,lost in space forever
the tip of the cigarette burns
just like my heart
i was afraid of this cos i knew
God has not destined me to be loved
but you wanted to change it all
i believd in you and i still do
but now
i cry alone ,lonely in this secluded corner
and you feel this is an act of mine
my heart pains and tells me to hate you
but i fall in love again with you
i stare at a smiling you
and drench my heart with your love
I want to dream of us again but am so afraid
life was so beautiful with you
i hide my tears and i hide your thoughts
and take us to a whole new world
but am so afraid to dream
Can you dream of us too?
waste a moment of your time and love me again?
i really don't know nor do i care
but i am so afraid to dream again