Last night you called and gave me a piece of your mind....but you know i felt great because hearing you voice after so many days gave me a pleasure that words might not be able to express.i dont think this is going to be much good as i am dying each passing moment ...not physically maybe but emotionally,as a soul deep inside i am dying if not a dead man already.i am just a dead man walking a corpse walkin amidst all these and i die with each passing moment that you have chosen to walk away from my life and am walking towards that oblivion.i didnt tell you anything yesterday because i felt you wont understand and they doesnt matter to you anymore.you always asked me to be strong and promised to be by my side you asked me to take care of myself...for your sake for our sake...but you dont understand that some people cant,you probably mistook me for onwe of those people who takes life too easily..evrything being fun...but i dont belong to that league...you should have known!!!
At times you have treated me like filth,ignored me so much taken me for granted that i ran amok...i wasa jealous ( i still am) about you, am possessive about you.i used to wait for your call to come and i still wait ...belive me i still wait for your call or text message..i dont know if they are going to happen at all or not yet i wait cos somewhere i still feel for you and trust you words "no matter what i say or do I love you"...At times you make me feel that you dont love me , you dont like me and you attitude and behaviour makes me feel so and you do that delibarately...i know that because you know me inside out but you havent got a little part of me..about the fact that i still cant let you go as i do love you and i still do..i know you know that and understand that..
when i was complaining about a few things you said we are so alike...i thought i had more strength than i actually have..patience i have but that too ends at some point of time ...when are you going to understand that or are you playing on that front now???i dont know i dont understand!!!
you thought i was meddling in your life when i wanted you all the time but God help you Mon-ami the day you start loving someone for real deep inside and that person doesnt meddle/care then it will be the other way round...for once in your lifetime you will be a loser.take it from me the person is not meddling/doesnt care not out of respect for you but because of the fact the person doesnt care enough about you to want you all the time , you will be left at peace not beacuse of the space to breathe in a relationship because of a huge space for others...the person doesnt love you enough...i didnt want to do whatever you said..it was just a futile rage that made me say all those crap..anyways god bless you and keep you happy...
you thought i was meddling in your life when i wanted you all the time but God help you Mon-ami the day you start loving someone for real deep inside and that person doesnt meddle/care then it will be the other way round...for once in your lifetime you will be a loser.take it from me the person is not meddling/doesnt care not out of respect for you but because of the fact the person doesnt care enough about you to want you all the time , you will be left at peace not beacuse of the space to breathe in a relationship because of a huge space for others...the person doesnt love you enough...i didnt want to do whatever you said..it was just a futile rage that made me say all those crap..anyways god bless you and keep you happy...
I loved you so much but i am sorry i failed to make that grade..
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