I am burning inside all alone and burning away like this lonely cigarrete stub...my grief and my thoughts are just coming and just vanishing into thin air like the smokes...
I dont know what is going inside me...is it a storm , grief i dnt know i am confused....am filled with a hopeless rage and pain .... i dont know what to do???a gloom sets in and i feel like crying but tears dont come ...maybe i dont hve any more tears to shed..
An emptiness of the heart fills in and sets the mood more.....wish i could have died this very moment...but alas i am destined to sustain more pain...to bleed ....i wished to bleed myself like i did earlier...but some promises are made to be obeyed..
in an island of grief i sit alone and i make myself understand that you are going through this too...i make my self believe that you are doing this on purpose with reasons best known to you.
i stare at the phone in utter disbelief which had just relayed me things i never dreamt in my nightmares coming from you....i still cant belive that you can say things like that to me!!!!well then why on earth did you come back???/
this is the phone , this is the room and evrything remains the same where we would exchange sweet nothings thoughts of us , our dreams pains ..we would fight, laugh , scream , conspire deep into the night smile and laugh and cry ... like together in arms and now tonite all that gets another new dimention...
But i love to dwell in the past ...the past when you said you love me , when you also shared the same madness , you made me feel you love me..and loved me....The past isnt dead..it isnt even past ...its the present as it relieves every moment in my heart...in my soul beacuse i can still feel the vibes of your love...your caring heart for me...
In my school days i was taugt that evrythin has an equal and opposite reaction....maybe thats why we fight like cats and dogs and hurt each other like hell....
I am still loving you......
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