I stand here cold and lonely left all alone in the vast sea of humanity...helpless but deep down inside of me i still believe and i still know that you are there as i can feel your presence inside my heart.but the present has created a void in me a serious vaccum which you know only you can fill.i feel like a puppy lost in a metro.i try to understand your pains empathetically not sympathetically and i do feel them and that is what pains me most that i am the cause you are so sad because i wanted to make you hsappy truly and deeply i mean it from the bottom of my heart.i know Mansi still haunts you as she does to me she makes us cry..and they make us smile too...you know and you can feel that my love for you is true but maybe the intensity of it made you afraid..you were afraid of yourself of me and maybe it was a bit suffocating but that was only love no intension of dictating was there.I know that you know me more than myself as i have told you YOU are ME.you want me to be strong but you know when you ignore me or pretend to hate me i can hate myself in multiple multitude..i become ruthless on me..only to realise later that in that process i have hurt you again..am sorry i did that again..
i agree that i have hurt you a number of times but trust me i never meant it from the hurt...just that bit of Jealousy and poossessiveness made me do them and then the repentence was from the heart...Tears dont lie...i hope you know that...
you can enact crying once but not everytime if you really dont feel repentance.you know how helpless,lost lonely i feel under certain conditions but you keep on repeating the same...i know you too are in pain but why do you do this to yourself????havent you tested me enough???how more am i to be tested?how can i make you believe me trust me??
you can block all my mails , sms , even blacklist my calls but can you block ME FROM LOVING YOU?you cant and someday you are going to realise that.can you block me from your memories,dreams, those moments of love togetherness, pains from your thoughts?I KNOW YOU CANT COS I KNOW YOU LOVE ME.
i still can feel your love and the pains ..i still know when i hert myself you know..you know when i am in pain and you too share that..i believe in the songs you sent me or even when you said "no matter what i say i love you" or words like that and that is what that keeps me goin..
I TRUST YOU MORE THAN MY SELF AND YOU ARE MY OWN SELF..
i know that we may be far apart but still we are deep in each others heart...you taught me what love is and made me feel loved and secure in your heart..you make me feel so complete...without you i feel like a rudderless ship lost in a storm...
its not because of any ego or anything its that i need you because i love ...i need you because i love you..
this is the darkest phase we are pasing through in our lives our relationship but love will conquer all....love will keep us alive...beacuse i know the night is darkest before dawn...and we will see a new sun rise together and the dreams that we have dreamt together will fly free in the horizons of our world that we are goin to build together.the love in our heart still grows like a vine with every passing moment.
you might ask ,"tum kis mitti ke bane ho?" and you know the answer 'ata nahin but i know that i am just made for You'
you know all my felings atill flows for you deep inside my heart like a river like a undercurrent...from the source which is you...because I AM YOU.
i still believe in fairy tales..fairy tales with happy endings and with" & they lived happily ever after"
missing you......
I could hardly believe it
