Monday, December 31, 2007

when i need you...


When I need you
I just close my eyes and Im with you
And all that I so want to give you
Its only a heartbeat away
When I need loveI hold out my hands and I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
Keeping me warm night and day
Miles and miles of empty space in between us
The telephone cant take the place of your smile
But you know I wont be travelin forever
Its cold out, but hold out, and do I like I do
When I need youI just close my eyes and Im with you
And all that I so wanna give you babe
Its only a heartbeat away
Its not easy when the road is your driver
Honey thats a heavy load that we bear
But you know I wont be traveling a lifetime
Its cold out but hold out and do like I doOh, I need you
When I need love
I hold out my hands and I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
Keeping me warm night and day
When I need youI just close my eyes
And youre right here by my side
Keeping me warm night and day
I just hold out my hands
I just hold out my hand
And Im with you darlin
Yes, Im with you darlin
All I wanna give you
Its only a heartbeat away
Oh I need you darling

my endless love....lionel ritchie.......


My love,
Theres only you in my life
The only thing thats bright
My first love,
Youre every breath that I take
Youre every step I make
And i(i-i-i-i-i)I want to share
All my love with you
No one else will do...And your eyes
Your eyes, your eyes
They tell me how much you care
Ooh yes, you will always be
My endless love
Two hearts,Two hearts that beat as one
Our lives have just begun
Forever(ohhhhhh)
Ill hold you close in my arms
I cant resist your charms
And loveOh, love Ill be a fool
For you,Im sure
You know I dont mindOh, you know I dont mind
cause you,You mean the world to me
OhI knowI knowIve found in you
My endless loveOooh-woowBoom, boomBoom, boom, boom, boom, booomBoom, boom, boom, boom, boomOooh,
and loveOh, love Ill be that fool
For you,Im sureYou know I dont mindOh you know-I dont mind
And, yes
Youll be the only one cause no one can deny
This love I have inside
And Ill give it all to you
My loveMy love, my love
My endless love

sunshine ...john denver

Sunshine on my shoulders makes me happy
Sunshine in my eyes can make me cry
Sunshine on the water looks so lovely
Sunshine almost always makes me high
If I had a day that I could give you
Id give to you a day just like today
If I had a song that I could sing for you
Id sing a song to make you feel this way
Sunshine on my shoulders makes me happy
Sunshine in my eyes can make me cry
Sunshine on the water looks so lovely
Sunshine almost always makes me high
If I had a tale that I could tell you
Id tell a tale sure to make you smile
If I had a wish that I could wish for you
Id make a wish for sunshine all the while
Sunshine on my shoulders makes me happy
Sunshine in my eyes can make me cry
Sunshine on the water looks so lovely
Sunshine almost always makes me high
Sunshine almost all the time makes me high
Sunshine almost always

Sunday, December 30, 2007

no sympathies please..


You know last night when you ignored and i was left alone in the chill of the night wrapped in a blanket i felt the chill inside the loneliness in my heart...
i desparately wanted to talk to you...
then i turned and through the open window i was looking at the clear blue sky with so many stars..they were blinking or were they smiling at me ?i couldnt make out as the eyes were wet..
then i remembered on a night like this we came to know that dad was diagonised with his terminal illness...it runs through our family....one star in particular seemed bright and looking to me!!was it dad...Dad i miss you...
Now i understand a lot of things which you said or did which at that time i failed to see through...i remember when inspite of your ill health you will stay awake till i come back home and have dinner and then you will bid me goodnight and painfully walk towards your bed...at that time i felt so angry ..why couldnt you take rest ?? i am grown up and i can take care of myself...
You would answer love someone care for someone and then you will know...
Now i know ...i truly mean it now i know what you meant and why you did so!!
i felt angry when you would be there to run your fingers through my hair when i had fever and check my temp. or keep your cold hand on my forehead..though it felt nice but i would be angry and ask you to leave me alone for a while...sorry dad....i undrstand now how much i did hurt you ..
i felt you were interfering in my life when you would ask about my friends and why i was late and all...you tried to be a friend to share all but you know na i was just an idiot, a foolish teenager who didnt have the depth to understand....
but now i do...i understand everything you did....and i hope you understand what you meant to me because it was you i looked for when i was in trouble and during fever i asked for that sharbat...
i and only i know what i havelost with you and you rightly said "You dont know what you have untill you have lost it"...i miss you dad..
it was you who i shared any good or bad news ..
you know dad that life is a great leveler...
its like the ocean...and maybe thats why you named me so..
you get back what you have given...cos life doesnt take away anything from you it gives you back all the same things and at the perfect time for you to understand...
i have got em all back..
but you were selfish too..you left me all alone when you know that i cant.. am not suitable for this fast paced world..
why did you when you loved me so??

Saturday, December 29, 2007

with arms open wide i wait....


its a cold wintry night
out of the blue.. an old forgotten tune
reminds me of you
a gust of icy breeze....makes me shiver..
shiver with emptiness ..without you
a lonely owl hoots
so do i whisper your name ..
i can feel the warmth of your love again
crickets sing in the bushes by
time ticks away...
it grows with my love for you
hope someday you will know..
DO i dare??

i miss you even beween my heartbeats....
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painful than hunger, a puzzle i try to solve
you are a distraction during my busy hours
but still i hold on to your dreams
every moment of my life..
evrything seems meaningless
picture of us..we painted
seems faded and lost..
loneliness seems a better friend than you
a shrewd me , foolish me a cruel me
a baby a dirty me...
can you look beyond that ..the real me

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monami do you know who do i talk to
all these lonely cold nights
does it matter to you anymore..
still i carry on...doin things that i need to do
life has its twists and turns...
death may have been better
why did you bring all the joy..
the happiest moments of my life
memories flood.mock at me..
cos i wanted to be happy...change my destiny!
cant stop the tears anymore..
i try to run away from you...drive you out of my mind
but can i run away from you?
i stand all alone lost ..in the middle of the road.
or is it the circus of life?
and i know i am still loving you
i just cant stop loving you......

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these are not poems but thoughts that i used to write as letters
i have tried to make them look like verse so that you dont get bored..
i know they are kiddish stuff...but please dont laugh at them as they are my feelings..
u may like or dislike them u are always welcome.
thnx and rgds..


van halen.......without you


hey you, wake up, get yourself together

yeah you, so you think you made it better'cause you know it's coming at you
while your back is turned look too long and i can't help you so clear your head, find a way home
better make up your mind first you say that you willthen you say you won't well i'm just trying to figure
try and figure you out how long can this go on tell me what is wrong
and maybe there's a waythat we can work it out there must be some kind of way that we can make it right
but i, i just can't do it all without you, without you
hey fool, wise up, better late than never yeah you, you know that nothing lasts forever
nobody ever told you that your time is running out
too bad and i can't help you how long can this go on
tell me what is wrong and maybe there's a way that we can work it out
there must be some kind of way that we can make it right
but i, i just can't do it all without you, without you
the point i'm trying to make you got to give more than you take
you gotta give, give more than you take
gotta, gotta, gotta work it out
Please help me do so...

annies song.....song frm the heart

You fill up me senses like a night in a forest
Like the mountains in springtime,
like a walk in the rain Like a storm in the desert,
like a sleepy blue ocean You fill up my senses come fill me again.
Come let me love you, let me give my life to you
Let me drown in your laughter, let me die in your arms
Let me lay down beside you, let me always be with you
Come let me love you, come love me again.

...Let me give my life to you Come let me love you,

come love me again.


come love me again....................

Friday, December 28, 2007

love????

"What is Love?"....when asked to a young kid she answered
Love is when you leave your Puppy for a whole day and still when you come back it still licks your face...
I still wait for you....still wait for the little things that you know makes me happy..

gamo ki baarish mein woh aaj bheege baithe hian.....jinko kabhi humne chaha woh aaj tanha baithe hain.......kar liya hai khud is qadar unhone humein khud se door.........na chah kar bhi woh humse door baithe hain...

hasti hai duniya.....dard hamara dekh kar.......chalti hawa bhi kar jati hai.......mazak humse khel kar......kya gila karen hum kisi aur se.....jab apne ashq hi chale jate hain aankhon ko chod kar


courtsey a frnd

This is a love story between a fisherman and a princess.Once upon a time in Marmaris, somewhere in the southern coast of Turkey , a fisherman and the daughter of a King fell in love.However, like all of us know, the love between a fisherman and a princess simply would not get the blessings of her father. Because of this, they would meet secretly at nights. But the old King soon learnt about his daughter's nocturnal tryst. One night, he asked his soldiers to follow her. The soldiers returned and informed the King that every night the princess would leave the palace and go to a small bay out oftown.She would signal to the fisherman at the other end of the bay by flashing a light and he would come to that light to find her.The King then ordered his soldiers to set a trap. They followed the princess, caught her and flashed a light to entice the fisherman. The princess managed to escape from the soldiers and ran as fast as she could to warn her lover. She realized though that it would not be possible to reach the fisherman if she were to run along the beach, so she thought she would swim. A miracle happened. Wherever she stepped into the sea, the water turned into sand; and the sand turned back into water whenever the soldiers followed her.But, as she was reaching her lover, a soldier's arrow meant for the fisherman struck her, killing her instantly.The people of Marmaris say that when the blood of the princess get mixed with the sea water, it changes the color of the sand.

फॉर यू to read someday


These days you feel so distant, and that's when I feel the most confused; I feel as though we weren't even together. Though you've talked about forever and you say you love me, what do those words really mean to you? To me there is no definition, no meaning that has value of words, and I think are you being true. Can I really rely on you? Though you've hurt me many times before, I've always found it in my heart to forgive. Forgive the pain and see through the tears.yes i run mad when u keep ignoring me and then i dnt know what i am doin...you keep makin an issue out of those things but have you ever tried to view through them?tried to understand what made me do so why i did so?But the point is you know whn i say some rude bad words i dont mean them cos u know the kind of trust and faith i have.U said a dead me=a dead you thats what makes me keep on..the sms where you said "no matter what i say i love you"i trust that cos i trust you your feelings and never ever have i thought you to be a flirt. So, I wonder what is the true meaning of our love, or is there really a meaning; and I can't help but to ask myself the same questions time and time again. So where does the line between love and hate fall in this relationship? Where's the space between good and the bad, the truth and the lies? Sometimes I just want to give up on us. But how can I do this; give up on you, when you still have my heart in chains, when you still have your arms around me, around my soul. I plead to go, but still I love you. Sometimes I think I will always love you, and that makes me cry.
I know you are trying to drive me away from your life the reasons best unsaid but dont you feel i would have gone away by now if i was a flirt ...keep testing..
jalte jalte sona v pura khara ho jata hai..tab???i mean it when i say I AM YOU..and i mean when i say that...
someday i hope you will raelise that and ..
I once was afraid to fall for a woman after all of the times that I had been loved and left before. I thought this would be the same, so I didn't let myself fall. I was afraid to be left, used, whatever, but you showed me what love really is. you made me feel that yes i can be loved too.You have been loved and left before, and I know that you were as scared as I was. But now, our lives seem to be empty without the other. I have done some things that hurt you, and I am sorry.... sorry to have hurt you so many times.
I know how much you love me, and I want you forever.My love for you continues to grow, and even though I will be gone for a while. It will never fade. You are my one true love, and I realize now that you won't leave. I love you with all of my heart and soul. You are my everything. I love you and will continue to do so.

my heart will go on.....it will!!!


Every night in my dreamsI see you, I feel you,
That is how I know you go on
Far across the distanceAnd spaces between us
You have come to show you go on
Near, far, wherever you areI believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the doorAnd youre here in my heart
And my heart will go on and onLove can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never let go till were goneLove was when I loved youOne true time I hold to
In my life well always go onNear, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And youre here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
Youre here, theres nothing I fear,
And I know that my heart will go on
Well stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

SCORPIONS : MY FAV i mean it too..

Time, it needs time
To win back your love againI will be there,
I will be thereLove, only loveCan bring back your love someday
I will be there, I will be thereIll fight, babe,
Ill fightTo win back your love againI will be there, I will be thereLove, only loveCan break down the wall somedayI will be there,
I will be there If we`d go againAll the way from the start
I would try to changeThe things that killed our loveYour pride has built a wall, so strong That I cant get throughIs there really no chance
To start once againIm loving youTry, baby try
To trust in my love againI will be there, I will be thereLove, our love
Just shouldnt be thrown awayI will be there,
I will be thereIf wed go againAll the way from the start I would try to change
The things that killed our loveYour pride has built a wall, so strong
That I cant get throughIs there really no chance
To start once againIf wed go again
All the way from the startI would try to change
The things that killed our loveYes, I`ve hurt your pride, and I know
What youve been through
You should give me a chance
This cant be the endIm still loving you
Im still loving you, I need your loveIm still loving you