thoughts for you

sittin all alone by the window of a speeding train i got lost in your thoughts..i kept recording these thoughts as i had a broken hand like a broken wing and i couldnt write..it was painful...i couldnt fly..as u broke my wings...i miss the open sky...

like the scenary vanishing fast behind the window memories keep flooding in and out of my mind...memories of you memories of us and everything and nothing...the promises the dreams the togetherness...all and nothing..

wish i could have been a poet....but sadly no am just a common man who can do nothing...just cry and let the tears dry..

i remember the harsh rude words i have told you and the hurts that might have caused and i feel sorry for you..and at times i feel that this is better ... i am not hurting you anymore and that you might be happy ...but are you really happy....??

i dont know ...wish i could know how you are i long to hear you voice but i know that has turned to a distant dream like those fading trees..outside this window..i pray whereever you are be happy and God keep you safe and contented...dont miss me i am not your worth...i dont deserve you ..

there might have been fault with my love my feelings else i feel...anyways ...

its raining hard outside..real hard and its getting colder..its raining inside too...the chill of loneliness in this vast planet grips me and i slowly drown in remorse and depression ...and my mind drifts away to the words of love we have exchanged..

i feel like a terminally ill patient who has been refused chemotherapy because he doesnt deserve to live...but ...isnt it strange and funny...

when i walk the streets which i used to walk talking to you the avenues i have walked all my life ....seems so strange and lonely and so unknown..the trees the culverts all mock at me...i look for a place to hide....all becomes to hazy..is it the rain or the tears??i dont know i cant feel.....the radio station suddenly starts to play some favourite song of ours and i start to feel enraged ....

i am divided into two...one half tries to hate you to forget you and the other half keeps justifying you ...and i always want the later half to win cos i am you..you are my destiny....

the train stops by a signal post ..its red colour made us stop and then it turns green and the train starts rolling ....the signal post stands there firm and fades away ...away from sight and still the post stands its stand...i do stand where i was from the first day we met...and will keep standing for you to understand and come back...people live by hope .....i live by hope and i live by your love..

last night i waited for a phone call or a text but maybe you forgot or chose to forgot..but i still believe there was a silent prayer from your heart and i will be happy with that for this time...cos i deserve no more...

God bless you and b with you always..

miss you

afterglow...

Here I am, lost in the light of the moon that comes through my window

Bathed in blue, the walls of my memory divide the thorns from the roses

It's you and the roses

Touch me and I will follow in your afterglow

Heal me from all this sorrow

As I let you go

I will find my way when I see your eyes

Now I'm living in your afterglow

Here I am, lost in the ashes of time,

but who wants tomorrow?

In between the longing to hold you again

I'm caught in your shadow, I'm losing control

My mind drifts away, we only have today

Touch me and I will follow in your afterglow

Heal me from all this sorrow

As I let you go I will find my way

I will sacrifice 'til the blinding day when I see your eyes

Now I'm living in your afterglow

When the veils are gone as I let you go, as I let you go

Touch me and I will follow in your afterglow

Heal me from all this sorrow

As I let you go I will find my way, I will sacrifice

Now I'm living in your afterglow

Bathed in blue, the walls of my memory divide the thorns from the roses

It's you who is closest

the video link is here http://youtube.com/watch?v=4BwL_13enB8

there is a hole in my soul

Im down a one way street

With a one night stand

.With a one track mind

Out in no mans land

(the punishment sometimes dont seem to fit the crime)

Yeah theres a hole in my soul

But one thing Ive learned

For every love letter written

Theres another one burned

(so tell me how its gonna be this time)

Is it over

Is it over

Is it overcause

Im blowinout the flame

Take a walk outside your mind

Tell me how it feels to be

The one who turns the knife inside of me

Take a look and you will find

theres nothing there girl

Yeah I swear, Im telling you girl

yeah cause

Theres a hole in my soul thats been killing me forever

Its a place where a garden never grows

Theres a hole in my soul, yeah

I should have known better

cause your loves like a thorn without a rose

Im as dry as a seven year drought

I got dust for tears

Yeah Im all tapped out

(sometimes I feel broken and cant get fixed)

I know theres been all kinds of shoes underneath your bed

Now I sleep with my boots on

but youre still in my head

(and something tells me this time Im down to my last licks)

cause if its over

Then its over

And its driving me insane

Is it overYeah its over

And Im blowin out the flame

Take a walk outside your mind

Tell me how it feels to be

The one who turns the knife inside of me

Take a look and you will find

Theres nothing there girl, yeah,

I swearIm telling you girl yeah

cause theres a hole in my soul

Thats been killing me forever

Its a place where a garden never grows

theres a hole in my soul,Yeah

I should have known better

cause your loves like a thorn

Without a rose

click here http://youtube.com/watch?v=ZJAVilZlluc for the video..

beind those hazel eyes.......

Seems like just yesterday

You were a part of me

I used to stand so tall

I used to be so strong

Your arms around me tight

Everything, it felt so right

Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong

Now I can't breathe

No, I can't sleep

I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again

I'm torn into pieces

Can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything

Opened up and let you in

You made me feel alright

For once in my life

Now all that's left of me

Is what I pretend to be

So together, but so broken up inside

'Cause I can't breathe

No, I can't sleep

I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again

I'm torn into pieces

Can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out

For hating you, I blame myself

Seeing you it kills me now

No, I don't cry on the outside

Anymore...Here I am, once again

I'm torn into pieces

Can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again

I'm torn into pieces

Can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

click http://youtube.com/watch?v=svxP2LjBg_4 for the video..

dil de diya hai.........

Dil de diya hai, jaan tumhein denge

Aa..

Dil de diya hai, jaan tumhein denge

Daga nahin karenge sanam

Ho...rab di kasam yaara, rab di kasam

Dil de diya hai, jaan tumhein dengeDaga nahin karenge sanam
Rukh zindagi ne mod liya kaisaHamne socha nahin tha kabhi aisa

Aata nahin yaqeen, kya se kya ho gaya

Kis tarha main tumse, bewafa ho gaya

Insaaf kar do, mujhe maaf kar do

Itna hi kar do karam

Dil de diya hai, jaan tumhein denge

Daga nahin karenge sanam
Awaargi mein ban gaya diwaana

Maine kyun saadgi ko nahin jaana

Chaahat yahi hai ke, is qadar pyaar doon

Qadmon mein tere main,

toh jahaan waar doon

Chain mera le lo, khushi meri le lo

De do mujhe dedo saare gham

Dil de diya hai, jaan tumhein denge

Daga nahin karenge sanam
Mere ashq keh rahe meri kahaani

Inhein samjho na tum sirf paani

Ro ro ke aansuon ke daag dhool jaayenge

In mein wafa ke rang, aaj ghool jaayenge

Paas tum rahogi, bhool ab na hogi

Karoonga na tumpe sitam

Dil de diya hai, jaan tumhein denge

Daga nahin karenge sanam

Ho...rab di kasam yaara, rab di kasam

Dil de diya hai, jaan tumhein denge

Daga nahin karenge sanam

kuuch is tarah....atif

kuchh is tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de

aansu tere saare meri palakon pe saja de

kuchh is tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de

kuchh is tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de

aansu tere saare meri palakon pe saja de

tu har ghadi har waqt mere saath raha hain

haan ye jism kabhi door kabhi paas raha hain

jo bhi ghum hain ye tere unhe tu mera pata de

kuchh is tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de

aansu tere saare meri palakon pe saja de

mujhko ko to tere chehare pe ye ghum nahi jhachta

jaayiz nahi lagta mujhe ghum se tera rishta

sun meri guzarish ise chehare se hata de

kuchh is tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de

aansu tere saare meri palakon pe saja de

aadat ....jal

najane kab se .

umeedein kuch baki hain

mujhe phir bhi teri yaad kiun aati hain

ajane kab seEeEeY

duur jitna bhi tu mujhsee pass terey meinnn..

ab to adat si hai mujhkooooaise jiney mein

zindagi se koii... shikhvaa hi naii haii

ab to zindaa hoon.. main iss neeley.... asmaan meinn...

chahat aisi haii yeh terii....barhti jayeee......

ahat aisi hai yeh terii.....

mujhe ko stayee........yadein gehri hain...

itnii... dil doob jayee....

aur ankhon mein yeh ghuum.....num bun jayeee.....

.hehehay....oo.....hooo....ab to adat sii...

haii mujhkooo aise jeeneyy meinnn

hehe..... hoho.....sabhii rateein haiinn....s

abhi baatein haiiiinnn.....bhula doo unheiinn..........

.mita doo unheiinnnnnn.....

ab to adat si hai mujhkooooooo0o0o..

better man ...........robbie williams

Send someone to love me

I need to rest in arms

Keep me safe from harm

In pouring rain

Give me endless summer

Lord I fear the cold

Feel I'm getting old

Before my time

As my soul heals the shame

I will grow through this pain

Lord I'm doing all I can

To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience'

Cause it's not my faultI know

I've been taught

To take the blame

Rest assured my angels

Will catch my tears

Walk me out of here

I'm in pain

As my soul heals the shame

I will grow through this pain

Lord I'm doing all I can

To be a better man

Once you've found that lover

You're homeward bound

Love is all around

Love is all around

I know some have fallen

On stony ground

But Love is all around

Send someone to love me

I need to rest in arms

Keep me safe from harm

In pouring rain

Give me endless summer

Lord I fear the cold

Feel I'm getting old

Before my time

As my soul heals the shame

I will grow through this pain

Lord I'm doin' all I can

To be a better man

hum tumse juda hoke.....md.Rafi

hum tum se judaa ho ke,

mar jaayenge ro ro ke

mar jaayenge ro ro ke

duniyaa badee zaalim hai,dil tod ke hasatee hai

ek mauj kinaare se,milane ko tarasatee hai

kah do naa koyee roke

kah do naa koyee roke

hum tum se judaa ho ke,

sochaa thaa kabhee do dil milakar naa judaa honge

maaloom na thaa hum yoon,naakaama-e-wafaa honge

qismat ne diye dhokhe

qismat ne diye dhokhe

hum tum se judaa ho ke,waade naheen bhoolenge,

qasmein naheen todenge

ye tay hai ke hum dono,milanaa naheen chhodenge

jo rok sake rokejo rok sake roke

hum tum se judaa ho ke,

mar jaayenge ro ro ke

for the video pls click http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qkFslE9hok0

some thoughts

i know i am a nothing to you and a good for nothing to myself and the rst of the world.A good for nothings life can be interesting too..no responsibilities,dont have to depend on others and no one to care for and no need to be cared too...people remember you when in need and quickly forget you when its over and they dont hesitate to throw you away from your life once its over just like a used tissue..Good for nothings are not supposed to have sentiments and emotions..that is extravagance.
Teardrops make your name the sms or the mails you sent hazy..blurr them ...if this way i could have made you untraceable in my life i wish i could have been a river.
am always trying to keep my emotions ,feelings words everything deep inside me like those olden days without you but now that you have opened me up they always fizzle out,it gets very difficult to keep them behind the floodgates but i am honestly trying.oh lord if i could stop loving you or bottle me up once again behind that mask of being happy and funny once again because of the hurts and insults and the pains you are dishing me out everyday eb=very moment of this life ..its very difficult to withstand them anymore..i just lie here with the broken wings writhing in pain and you give a damn about it!!is it?i lie here helpless looking at the sky which was once my domain where i could fly soar above the rest and be happy..
Thank you for reminding me that Your God creates some people not to be happy, destined not to be loved and to be misunderstood by default.you came and changed it all and i felt its going to change but i forgot life too can have commercial breaks.Funny it may sound but that is the truth about my life..
How can i make you believe make you understand make you understand it all?I dont know nor do i have any clue.In fairy tales all cursed people know or their godmother tells them a way out of their misery but at times i feel the only way out for me is another life..You know..thats why at times i feel eager to end it all..the i feel that would be selfish of me because i cant leave you alone in this world as you too have only me and no-one else..maybe now you are surrounde with friends and family but i know you are lonely out there just like me and craving for me cos deep inside you know who is there for you..who really cares and loves you true from the heart........waiting there somewhere alone in the dark...that might be giving you the confidence the strength to carry on.Maybe my thoughts are like the glowworms in a dark room which gives you hope and a will to survive and carry on reminding you that you are not alone..theres someone ...a good for nothing maybe but all yours..
You know cyberspace gave us a lot of things but have taken away more than that..You know what i mean..the anonimity i have here expressing myself is a bliss.fast life is blinding all the way..but the end is blinding with tears ...as you find yourself all alone left with nothing as you have left the people who love you and care a way behind....you are very very lonely out there...its like conquering the highest peak and you look around and find an emptiness all around..
you are my past my present my future...my bits and pieces of dreams a collage of what i have and what i dont...a locked door to my fairy tale where all stories have happy endings-"AND THEY LIVED HAPPILY EVER AFTER"...where beasts are also loved by princess.you are the connecting link between my life and death..when i go i will go concontempted and complete unafraid as i will go with the feeling and knowing from the heart that i still love you as you do too...and i dont belong in this world of yours..you will be the only one to know about the last days of my pain and misery..and the reason i chose to quit it all...that will be your punishment which will make you realise someday what you meant to me and that you were my reason to live my reason to smile and the you meant my happiness,my power my pleasure my pain my joy my sorrow my pride my patience my hope my everything.You are the centre of my universe around whom my world revolved.
You are still the one.i can still see your face , listen to your laughter see the dreams even in the dark and sometimes my mind starts to wonder do you see them too?when i feel cold i still draw the covers thinking of you and i can feel the warmth and your presnece and i no longer feel lonely..the world around me changes every moment bet that desnt change me nor my feelings for you neither the things that we have shared.the memory remains along with the emotions the feelings the love for each other..i try to steal into your mind and whisper thiose sweet nothings into your ears..then i try to hate you and be angry with youand then i lose it all..i know i cant stop loving you as my love grows with each passing moment.
Deep inside i feel a emptiness a helplessness a loneliness yet i have to put a mask of happiness on before i go out...i dont want people to sympathise me or make fun of my feelings...i dont wnat anyone to know theres a strom in my head and heart...i want that storm outside that will destroy it all and i can stand alone and cry out loud and let the tears flow...

bridge over troubled water

When youre weary, feeling small,

When tears are in your eyes,

I will dry them all;

Im on your side.

when times get rough

And friends just cant be found,

Like a bridge over troubled water

I will lay me down.

Like a bridge over troubled water

I will lay me down.

When youre down and out,

When youre on the street,

When evening falls so hard

I will comfort you.

Ill take your part.

When darkness comes

And pains is all around,

Like a bridge over troubled water

I will lay me down.

Like a bridge over troubled water

I will lay me down.

Sail on silvergirl,Sail on by.

Your time has come to shine.

All your dreams are on their way.

See how they shine.

If you need a friend

Im sailing right behind.

Like a bridge over troubled water

I will ease your mind.

Like a bridge over troubled water

I will ease your mind.

yeah kahan aa gaye hum..

Main aur meri tanhaai aksar yeh baatein karte hain

Tum hoti to kaisa hota, tum yeh kehti, tum voh kehti

Tum is baat pe hairaan hoti, tum us baat pe kitni hansti

Tum hoti to aisa hota, tum hoti to vaisa hota

Main aur meri tanhaai aksar yeh baatein karte hain

Yeh kahan aa gaye humYunhi saath saath chalte

Teri baahon mein hai jaanam

Mere jism-o-jaan pighalte

Yeh kahan aa gaye hum

Yunhi saath saath chalte

Yeh raat hai, yeh tumhaari zulfein khuli hui hai

Hai chaandni ya tumhaari nazrein se meri raatein dhuli hui hai

Yeh chaand hai ya tumhaara kangan

Sitaarein hai ya tumhaara aanchal

Hawa ka jhonka hai ya tumhaare badan ki khushboo

Yeh pattiyon ki hai sarsaraahat ke tumne chupke se kuch kaha hai

Yeh sochta hoon main kab se gumsum

Ke jab ki mujhko bhi yeh khabar hai

Ke tum nahin ho, kahin nahin ho

Magar yeh dil hai ke keh raha hai

Ke tum yahin ho, yahin kahin ho

O, tu badan hai main hoon chhaaya

Tu na ho to main kahan hoon

Mujhe pyaar karne waale

Tu jahan hai main vahan hoon

Hamein milna hi tha hamdam

Issi raah pe nikalte

Yeh kahan aa gaye hum

Yunhi saath saath chalte, meri saans saans ma

hekeKoi bheena bheena chandan

Tera pyaar chaandni hai

Mera dil hai jaise aangan

Koi aur bhi mulaayam

Meri shaam dhalte dhalte

Yeh kahan aa gaye hum

Yunhi saath saath chalte

Majboor yeh haalaat, idhar bhi hai udhar bhi

Tanhaai ki ek raat, idhar bhi hai udhar bhi

Kehne ko bahut kuch hai, magar kisse kahe hum

Kab tak yunhi khaamosh rahe aur sahe hum

Dil kehta hai duniya ki har ek rasm utha de

Deevaar jo hum dono mein hai, aaj gira de

Kyoon dil mein sulagte rahe, logon ko bata de

Haan humko mohabbat hai, mohabbat hai, mohabbat

Ab dil mein yehi baat, idhar bhi hai udhar bhi

Yeh kahan aa gaye hum

Yunhi saath saath chalte

Yeh kahan aa gaye hum

outsider..thats me!!!

Someone else is in your arms tonight

While Im all alone and blue

Someone else will kiss and hold you tight

Just the way I used to do

I used to be your love

And now Im your used to be

Outsider, thats me

Youll be dancing cheek to cheek with him

To our favorite melody

And the tender words you speak to him

Will be words you spoke to me

Once I was in your hearts

Now someone else holds the key

Outsider, thats me*

I want you so much (so much)

I can look (you can look) but must not touch

I keep waiting for the phone to ring

But I know its all in vain

When you left me you took everything

But the memories and the pain

I used to be your love

And now Im your used to be

Outsider, thats me

Outsider, thats me

sound of silence...simon and garfunkel

Hello darkness, my old friend,

Ive come to talk with you again,

Because a vision softly creeping,

Left its seeds while I was sleeping,

And the vision that was planted in my brain

Still remains

Within the sound of silence.

In restless dreams I walked alone

Narrow streets of cobblestone,

neath the halo of a street lamp,

I turned my collar to the cold and damp

When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of

A neon lightThat split the night

And touched the sound of silence.

And in the naked light I saw

Ten thousand people, maybe more.

People talking without speaking,

People hearing without listening,

People writing songs that voices never share

And no one deared

Disturb the sound of silence.

Fools said i,you do not know

Silence like a cancer grows.

Hear my words that I might teach you,

Take my arms that I might reach you.

But my words like silent raindrops fell,

And echoed

In the wells of silence

And the people bowed and prayed

To the neon God they made.

And the sign flashed out its warning,

In the words that it was forming.

And the signs said, the words of the prophets

Are written on the subway walls

And tenement halls.

And whisperd in the sounds of silence.

just got emotional....

The feeling I have now, my jaan, is really indescribable. I was fighting the existence of this great distance between us and yet it came to me striking hard where it hurts the most - being away from you. I wan't to cry, you know, in fact I did, I need to. It hurts me so much to know your state, the fact that I am not with you. How useless, heartless, worthless am I.I just want to tell you how sorry I am. Terribly, terribly sorry. I was like a child crying in the shadows, like I want to hit something or shout. I miss you, I terribly do. Yet that longing cannot equate the love I have for you. And you may be thinking by now that all I tell you are mere words without proof. I will be home soon my love. I will be there.I love you with all of my heart and soul. All that I am, I owe you. I will be there. "I'll walk in the rain by your side, I'll cling to the warmth of your tiny hand, I'll do anything to keep you satisfied. I love you more than anybody can."If God forbid, and transfer to me all the pain you are having right now, I would gladly take it, even if it leads me to stop breathing. For that is nothing compared to the joy, satisfaction and completion that the mere mention of your name brings me. For to hold that pain for you shall be my honor and privilege. I have nothing to be proud of but you.My existence has no purpose but to be with you. I want for the both of us is to be happy. I want you be my back bone, my soul, and my air that I breathe. I want to see us grow old together if that is what you are ready for.
Why didn't I felt hatred and pain towards you? Instead, I felt happiness and hope that these things will be endless. I already believed that answers come when you stop asking, believed that you can take back the love you thought you've lost, and believed in soul mates. Because if not, why are we here in for each other? Why in the world have we met ?I don't want to ask anymore. I just want this to last even if this will result in just being friends. Staying - even without promises, is more than enough. I don't want to wish for more than this. Remaining as friends is enough for me to assure that you will stay not forever, but for as long as I live ... I loved you then and I still love you now.
Here I am in bed lying here listening to the sound of the winds gently brushing on my window as if it wants to come in. My CD is on with calming music blending into the sound of the breeze mixing it with the sound of crickets or the lonely owls that hoot all alone. It is so calming, relaxing and saddening too. My mind is free of all that troubles me. I lay here in a dream-like state, my mind wondering where ever it wants, daydreaming in a world that is mine alone.My thoughts turn to you and my mind reaches a new state, another dream, another wish but alas I am only dreaming, my mind listening to my heart. In my daydream, I see the way you look at me clearly, no misinterpretations, with a knowing feeling. Am I dreaming? I MUST BE! My mind turns again arguing with the heart, both trying to understand, wanting the answer, the truth. The mind telling me, "You will only get hurt again," The heart saying it doesn't matter, the mind wanting to give up, the heart not wanting to let go. I close my eyes and I see you. The sound of the breeze reminds me of your smile, and like everyday, a strange feeling rushes over me. I smile, the heart and mind at peace, once again calm and happy, all knowing the truth - what is real and what is just a dream!

Main Kabhi Batlata Nahin

Par Andhere Se Darta Hoon Main

Maa Yun To Main,Dikhlata Nahin

Teri Parwaah Karta Hoon Main Maa

Tujhe Sab Hain Pata, Hain Na Maa

Tujhe Sab Hain Pata,,Meri Maa

Bheed Mein Yun Na Chhoro Mujhe

Ghar Laut Ke Bhi Aa Naa Paoon

Maa Bhej Na Itna Door Mujkko

Tu Yaad Bhi Tujhko Aa Naa Paoon

Maa Kya Itna Bura Hoon Main

Maa Kya Itna Bura Meri Maa
Jab Bhi Kabhi Papa Mujhe

Jor Zor Se Jhoola Jhulate Hain

Maa Meri Nazar Dhoondhe Tujhe

Sochu Yahi Tu Aa Ke Thaamegi

Maa Unse Main Yeh Kehta Nahin Par

Main Seham Jaata Hoon Maa
Chehre Pe Aane Deta Nahin

Dil Hi Dil Mein Ghabraata Hoon

Maa Tujhe Sab Hai Pata Hai Naa

Maa Tujhe Sab Hai Pata Meri Maa

Main Kabhi Batlata Nahin

Par Andhere Se Darta Hoon Main

Maa Yun To Main,Dikhlata Nahin

Teri Parwaah Karta Hoon Main

Maa Tujhe Sab Hain Pata, Hain Na

Maa Tujhe Sab Hain Pata,,Meri Maa

i will be right here waiting for you....richard marx

Oceans apart day after day

And I slowly go insane

I hear your voice on the line

But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never

How can we say forever

Wherever you go

Whatever you do I will be right here waiting for you

Whatever it takes Or how my heart breaks

I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times

That I though would last somehow

I hear the laughter, I taste the tears

But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby

You've got me goin' CrAzY

Wherever you go

Whatever you do I will be right here waiting for you

Whatever it takes

Or how my heart breaks

I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive

This romance

But in the end if I'm with you

I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it baby

You've got me goin' cRaZy

Wherever you go

Whatever you do I will be right here waiting for you

Whatever it takes Or how my heart breaks

I will be right here waiting for you

tell me how i am supposed to live ?/

I could hardly believe it

When I heard the news today

I had to come and get it straight from you

They said you were leavin'

Someone swept you heart

the look upon your face I see it's true

So tell me all about it, tell me

'bout the plans you're makin'

Then tell me one thing more before I go

Tell me how am I supposed to live without you

Now that I've been lovin' you so long

How am I supposed to live without you

How am I supposed to carry on

When all that I've been livin' for is gone

I didn't come here for cryin'

Didn't come here to breakdown

It's just a dream of mine is coming to an end

An how can I blame you

When I built my world around

The hope that someday we'd be so much more than friends

And I don't wanna know the price

I'm gonna pay for dreaming

When even now it's more than I can take

And I don't wanna face the price

I'm gonna pay for dreaming

Now that your dream has come true

link for the video..http://youtube.com/watch?v=1UNeZSZm4BQ

tootta toota ek parinda....

Toota Toota Ek Parinda Aise Toota
Ke Phir Jud Naa Paaya
Loota Loota Kisne Usko Aise Loota
Ke Phir Ud Naa Paaya
O O O O Toota Toota Ek Parinda Aise Toota
Ke Phir Jud Naa Paaya
Loota Loota Kisne Usko Aise Loota
Ke Phir Ud Naa Paaya
Girta Hua Woh Asma Se
Aakar Gira Zameen Par
Khwabon Mein Phir Bhi Badal Hi The
Woh Kehta Raha Magar
Ke Allah Ke Bande Hasde Allah Ke Bande
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Jo Bhi Ho Kal Phir Aayega
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Allah Ke Bande
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Jo Bhi Ho Kal Phir Aayega
Kho Ke Aapne Par Hi To Usne Tha Ud Naa Sikha
Kho Ke Aapne Par Hi To O O O
Kho Ke Aapne Par Hi To Usne Tha Ud Naa Sikha
Gham Ko Aapne Saath Mein Lele Dard Bhi Tere Kaam Aayega
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Allah Ke Bande
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Jo Bhi Ho Kal Phir Aayega
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Allah Ke Bande
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Jo Bhi Ho Kal Phir Aayega
Aa Aa Aaa
Tukde Tuke Ho Gaya Tha Har Sapna Jab Woh Toota
Tukde Tuke Ho Gaya Tha Aa Aaa Aa
Tukde Tuke Ho Gaya Tha Har Sapna Jab Woh Toota
Bhikre Tukdon Mein Allah Ki Marzi Ka Manzar Paayega
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Allah Ke Bande
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Jo Bhi Ho Kal Phir Aayega
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Allah Ke Bande
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Jo Bhi Ho Kal Phir Aayega
Toota Toota Ek Parinda Aise Toota
Ke Phir Jud Naa Paaya
Loota Loota Kisne Usko Aise Loota
Ke Phir Ud Naa Paaya
Girta Hua Woh Asma Se
Aakar Gira Zameen Par
Khwabon Mein Phir Bhi Badal Hi The
Woh Kehta Raha Magar
Ke Allah Ke Bande Hasde Allah Ke Bande
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Jo Bhi Ho Kal Phir Aayega
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Allah Ke Bande
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Jo Bhi Ho Kal Phir Aayega
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Allah Ke Bande
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Jo Bhi Ho Kal Phir Aayega
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Allah Ke Bande
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Jo Bhi Ho Kal Phir Aayega

video link...http://youtube.com/watch?v=4UuJK5Z_ltE

teri deewani...

preet ki lath mohe aaisi laagi

ho gayi main matwaali

bal bal jaaun apane piya koke main jaaun vaari vaari

mohe sudh budh naa rahe tan mann kiyeh toh jaane duniya saari

bebas aur laachar phiru main

haari main dil haari

tere naam se jee loon tere naam se marr jaaun

tere naam se jee loon tere naam se marr jaaun

teri jaan ke sadke mein kuchh aaisa kar jaaun

tune kya kar dala

marr gayi main mitt gayi main

ho ri ha ha ri ho gayi main

teri deewani deewani

teri deewani deewani

tune kya kar dala marr gayi main mitt gayi main

ho ri ha ha ri ho gayi main

teri deewani deewaniteri deewani deewani

ishq junoon jab hadh se badh jaaye - 2

hanste hanste aashiq suli chadh jaaye

ishq ka jaadu sar chadhkar bole

khoob laga lo pehre raste rab khole

yahi ishq ki marzi hain yahi rab ki marzi hain

yahi ishq ki marzi hain yahi rab ki marzi hain

tere bin jeena kaisa???

tune kya kar dala marr gayi main mitt gayi main

ho ri ha ha ri ho gayi main

teri deewani deewani

teri deewani deewani

ke main rang rangili deewani - 2

ke main albeli main mastani

gaaun bajaaun sabko rijhaaunhe ???

se begaanike main deewani main deewani

tere naam se jee loon tere naam se marr jaaun

tere jaan ke sadle mein kuchh aaisa kar jaaun

tune kya kar dala marr gayi main mitt gayi main

ho ri ha ha ri ho gayi main

teri deewani deewani

teri deewani deewani

teri deewani deewani

teri deewani deewani

click http://youtube.com/watch?v=rId1koBIpFM for the video...

i felt like i should tell you this

breaking down everymoment i am down deep inside...i fell from the sky and you were not there to catch me as you did promise me...yet i try to b happy cos i dont want others to make fun of my feelings...
may be its your way to test...to give me the pain for me to endure so that i can treasure that for a lifetime..i learnt to fly..you taught meto fly in the open skies with my eyes full of dreams ...i learned to walk on cloud number nine....but its you who shot me down ...and left me alone writhing with pain....may be you are very near ..waiting for the right moment to take me up and nurse my wounds and love me more than ever...its a test of character...
i still follow the ritual of a bath at night inspite of the cold as it was then you would call and i have become a little superstitious these days yet i am unable to find whats wrong as still my phone doesnt play your tone...i still wait ..
i know and believe deep inside that you are my destiny and that God has made me for you and just you otherwise He would not have made us cross our path at this stage of our lives..i meant it from the core of my heart when i said i dont want to live without you .you are my very existance and My-Self..my mon-ami...my everything.
i ask the moon to kiss your eyes goodnight everynight and the wind to whisper in your ears that i love you with alll my heart..

may be i am addicted to you and you are the drug that keeps me from dying ..i am not afraid of dying but i am afraid of losing you..its no infatuation or timepass but its for your heart to realise what it is!

you make me feel so good complete so contented so very Me.

i can listen your heart and soul speak to me...i still can..feel you your love your warmth and your presence..like thedeep oceans i am getting calmer and hiding all deep inside me for you to find out ..the exuberance of being in love for the first time is gone and that doesnt mean that i dont love you anymore but on the contrary i love you more with each passing moment ...

i was all alone in the world and you were looking for a place to hide lost and lonely we were both and made for each other and we found each other and gave us the will to survive.

whatever you are trying is going in vain as you wont be able to make me hate you and the more i understand you the more i love you..cos hating you is hating my own self and that creates and emptiness inside and the will to let go all even living...

i cant bring you the stars or the moon nor can i climb the highest mountains , cant buy you costly gifts or sing love songs like movie heroes but i can i and i will and i do love you from the core of my heart..forever will do so..take care you little foolish kid..

bas tumko bolna tha.......

I stand here cold and lonely left all alone in the vast sea of humanity...helpless but deep down inside of me i still believe and i still know that you are there as i can feel your presence inside my heart.but the present has created a void in me a serious vaccum which you know only you can fill.i feel like a puppy lost in a metro.i try to understand your pains empathetically not sympathetically and i do feel them and that is what pains me most that i am the cause you are so sad because i wanted to make you hsappy truly and deeply i mean it from the bottom of my heart.i know Mansi still haunts you as she does to me she makes us cry..and they make us smile too...you know and you can feel that my love for you is true but maybe the intensity of it made you afraid..you were afraid of yourself of me and maybe it was a bit suffocating but that was only love no intension of dictating was there.I know that you know me more than myself as i have told you YOU are ME.you want me to be strong but you know when you ignore me or pretend to hate me i can hate myself in multiple multitude..i become ruthless on me..only to realise later that in that process i have hurt you again..am sorry i did that again..

i agree that i have hurt you a number of times but trust me i never meant it from the hurt...just that bit of Jealousy and poossessiveness made me do them and then the repentence was from the heart...Tears dont lie...i hope you know that...

you can enact crying once but not everytime if you really dont feel repentance.you know how helpless,lost lonely i feel under certain conditions but you keep on repeating the same...i know you too are in pain but why do you do this to yourself????havent you tested me enough???how more am i to be tested?how can i make you believe me trust me??

you can block all my mails , sms , even blacklist my calls but can you block ME FROM LOVING YOU?you cant and someday you are going to realise that.can you block me from your memories,dreams, those moments of love togetherness, pains from your thoughts?I KNOW YOU CANT COS I KNOW YOU LOVE ME.

i still can feel your love and the pains ..i still know when i hert myself you know..you know when i am in pain and you too share that..i believe in the songs you sent me or even when you said "no matter what i say i love you" or words like that and that is what that keeps me goin..

I TRUST YOU MORE THAN MY SELF AND YOU ARE MY OWN SELF..

i know that we may be far apart but still we are deep in each others heart...you taught me what love is and made me feel loved and secure in your heart..you make me feel so complete...without you i feel like a rudderless ship lost in a storm...

its not because of any ego or anything its that i need you because i love ...i need you because i love you..

this is the darkest phase we are pasing through in our lives our relationship but love will conquer all....love will keep us alive...beacuse i know the night is darkest before dawn...and we will see a new sun rise together and the dreams that we have dreamt together will fly free in the horizons of our world that we are goin to build together.the love in our heart still grows like a vine with every passing moment.

you might ask ,"tum kis mitti ke bane ho?" and you know the answer 'ata nahin but i know that i am just made for You'

you know all my felings atill flows for you deep inside my heart like a river like a undercurrent...from the source which is you...because I AM YOU.

i still believe in fairy tales..fairy tales with happy endings and with" & they lived happily ever after"

missing you......

tum se hi...

Na hai yeh pana

Na Khona hi hai

Tera Na hona jane

Kyun hona hi hai
Tum se hi din hota hai

Surmaiye shaam aati

Tumse hi tumse hi
Har ghadi saans aati hai

Zindagi kehlati hai

Tumse hi tumse hi
Na hai yeh pana

Na Khona hi hai

Tera Na hona jane

Kyun hona hi hai

Aankhon mein ankhne teri

Bahoon mein baahein teri

Mera na mujhe mein kuch raha hua kya

Baaton mein baatein teri

Raatein saugatein teri

Kyun tera sab yeh ho gayahua kya

Mein kahin bhi jata hoon

Tumse hi mil jata hoon

Tumse hi tumse hi
Shoor mein khamoshi hai

Thodi se Behoshi hai

Tum se hi tum se hi
Aadha sa wada kabhi

Aadhe se jayada kabhi

Jee chahe karlu is trah wafa ka

Chode na chote kabhi

Tode na tute kabhi

Jo dhaga tumse jud gaya wafa ka
Mein Tera sharmaya hoon

Jo mein ban paya hoon

Tumse hi tumse hi

Raste miljate hai

Manzile miljati hai

Tumse hi tumse hi
Na hai yeh pana

Na Khona hi hai

Tera Na hona jane

Kyun hona hi hai

tum se mujhe kyun pyaar ho gaya

Tumse mujhe pyaar kyoon ho gaya

Tum na mile aur main kho gaya

Tum mere khwaabon se jaa na sake

Tum meri baahon mein aa na sake

Tumse mujhe pyaar kyoon ho gaya

Tum na mile aur main kho gaya

Tum mere khwaabon se jaa na sake

Tum meri baahon mein aa na sake

Tumse gila nahin mujhe kismat se hai gile

Karta hai aasmaan kyoon yeh dil ke faisle

Tum mere khwaabon se jaa na sake

Tum meri baahon mein aa na sake

Tumse mujhe pyaar kyoon ho gaya

Tum na mile aur main kho gaya

Barbaad ho gaya main kyoon yeh bhi na keh saka

Roya main yun ke ek bhi aansu na beh saka

Aansu na beh saka, aansu na beh saka

Tum mere khwaabon se jaa na sake

Tum meri baahon mein aa na sake

Tumse mujhe pyaar kyoon ho gaya

Tum na mile aur main kho gaya

Tum mere khwaabon se jaa na sake

Tum meri baahon mein aa na sake

every thing i do

for video of this song pls click the link http://youtube.com/watch?v=xxecoU0DFS4

Words.....

smile an ever lasting smile
a smile can bring you near to me
don't ever let me find you gone
'cause that would bring a tear to me

this world has lost its glory

let's start a brand new story now

my love

you think that I don't even mean a single word I say

it's only words and words are all I have

to take your heart away

talk in ever lasting words and dedicate them all to me

and I will give you all my life

i'm here if you should call to me

you think that I don't even mean a single word I say

it's only words and words are all I have

to take your heart away it's only words and words are all I have

to take your heart away

this world has lost its glory

let's start a brand new story now

my love

you think

that I don't even mean a single word I say

it's only words and words are all I have

to take your heart away

it's only words and words are all I have

to take your heart away

it's only words and words are all I have

to take your heart away

http://youtube.com/watch?v=wfBJ-RxUtSA visit for video of this song..you will love it