Tuesday, January 1, 2008

still waiting for your wish......


I don't know how to start this ; I have so much emotion in my heart. I never thought this would happen, never thought that it would be over, that we would say our last goodbye.I want you to know that you will always be in my heart. The times we spent together I will carry forever deep in my soul in the hope that one day we will meet again and still feel this incredible, untouchable, everlasting love for each other.The choices I have to make are hard and this decision is one that no one should have to make - I leave you with this final thought … one day we will meet again under a blanket of light and purity. Our love will shine again once more and we will be free to fly away … forever.i wanted you to be the first person i talk to this new year but u wanted it to be someone else..I agree i am jealous and possessive about you but....that is a part of being in love..u know that too..actually the point is who u cannot love or like is at fault always ...hai na!!!its not your fault if you cannot read the eyes that hurt you but it is you fault if you cannot read the eyes that love you..and care for youu take me responsible for the problems you are facing at home na!
But have you ever tried to understand the pain in me?
Have you ever tried to understand the fact that I was just trying to be naughty…no malintensions were there..trust me for once!!!please
cos if you love a person u will need and excuse to forgive.....and try to understand the persons probs
u think i am a nautanki....i am a flirt and am to something na...u told me all these things....but deep inside u know the truth..It's been about a months since I last talked to you. I miss you so much and I can't stop thinking of you. I thought that by now I'd be okay with the fact that we can't be together, but it still hurts me as if we just ended yesterday. You are the last thing on my mind before I go to bed and the first thing on my mind when I wake up. I just wish I could hear your voice and tell you just how much I truly love you.I don't know why I fell so in love with you so fast, but what I do know, is that in the short time we've been together was like magic for me. We became so close and everything just felt so right. It's almost as if something brought us together. We were meant to find each other and complete each other's life.I love you, and there's nothing that would make me happier than to have you in my life again. Even if it's only as friends. I just miss you. I can't help it. I've been trying all this time to ignore this void in my heart, but I can't. And it just hurts so bad because I know in my heart that you and I will never be. The reason why we can't be together is what hurts me more. If it was because you didn't love me or didn't want to be with me, then I could accept that. But it's not because of that and that is what's making hard for me to let you go. I feel that we belong to each other.love doesnt end the way you are claiming to end ....there is more to it...either it was not there or you are doin this to test me and my patience....dont know how can i let you feel what you mean to me...or how much i love you..All your family and friends told me that they've never seen me this happy before i met you.you told me that you've never had feelings for someone the way you had for me. So why, jaan, why can't you just face it and let me in?I'd be so good to you. I would never do anything to hurt you. I would cherish you and support you in everything you do. I'd show you love like you've never seen before. I love you, sonamon, and there's nothing I can do about it but write this letter that you'll never receive anyway. But to let it all out makes it a little easier.I miss you, my love, my heart, my soul. Please take care of yourself because I truly care for you. Even if we are over, I will always have you in my heart. And I will always remember the time we spent together. God bless you and your family. I hope one day you'll find happiness.life is no movie its much more than that.....try to understand that.i feel like saying chalo ek baar fir se ajnabee ban jayen hum dono and can we start everything afresh anew??wont you give me another chance..??tum nahin samjhoge hume to kaun samjhega?/try to imagine the pain....anyways take care...try to forgive and take me in your arms again..cos you know what i`m doin to himself...farq nahin padta but once it did........and still does...i`ll see how much pain you can give me or see me in..love you with all my heart…
miss u between my heartbeats….

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